Where is the Compassion?

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Yesterday I decided to post a craigslist listing which included a link to my blog. I have become increasinly desperate in my current medical situation and I am trying to get the help that I need. The last thing that I ever wanted to have to do is ask for donations, to help me with my medical care.

I have already gotten cruel comments calling me a begger, accusing me of lying, suggesting that now I can get healthcare because of the passage of the Healthcare Reform Bill. Well yes the the bill is passed, but as an adult with a pre-exsiting condition it will be months before I could be eligible. I am in need of immediate medical care now.

I know their are people who are cruel and uncompassionate. I knew deep down inside that their would be people who would say cruel things. But it still hurts. If they could see my body all broken out with Psoriasis and my legs and tendon and ligaments swollen to the extent that I can barely walk from the bedroom to the bathroom a few steps from the bedroom. If they could feel my pain and despair, just maybe they would have some compassion.They do not have to donate anything to me.

I just wish that people would just stop and think about the comments that they make, because people are hurting and people are suffering, just as I am. One day their body will attack them, leaving them in a desperate situation. It is a struggle each day for me not to just give up.

I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT HEALTHCARE

I have none. I am uninsured. I cannot obtain healthcare insurance because I have a pre-exsisting condition. In September 2009 I was hospitalized and diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis. The hospital that I was taken to by ambulance, because I was very sick and barley able to stand and walk, discharged me after six days. The Doctor said to me, we are releasing you and you are going to have to find a doctor as an outpatient. I could barely walk or stand, and I could only walk or stand for short periods of time only with the assistance of the walker. I was still in so much physical pain. I was not even offered physical therapy.

It was only the kindness of a nurse who allowed me to take the hospital walker home, the doctors did not care, she walked out of the room after telling me that she was releasing me with no concern about the fact that I could barely walk. The doctors did not care about me because I was just another uninsured person of which they did not want to waste anymore money on. Their actions hurt me both physically and emotionally. They made me feel so bad, they made me feel worthless. They made me feel that my life was worthless because I was uninsured.

This is my own personal experience. I sit here now day after day suffering crying and worrying about my health and my fate. The healthcare system in America is broken. President Barack Obama is trying to do the "Moral" and just thing by fighting for Healthcare Reform and banning insurance companies from denying people healthcare insurance because they have a pre-exsisting condition.

Why is it that the American Citizens in this country who have the least have to suffer the most, when they are uninsured and became sick? Why are the less fortunate in America not entitled to the same type of healthcare as a US Senator or Congressman, or congresswoman? The tax payers pay for their Healthcare for life and not just for them their families as well. The rich, and wealthy to include many wealthy millionaires some of which have never been in touch with the common man or woman of which they do not care to, because they do not have a clue what the real world is like. Some preside in the position just for a hobby and just for the power.

So the bottom line is in America the richest country in the world if you are rich, extremely wealthy or work for congress you have more than a better chance of saving your life. If you are poor you fend for yourself, suffer and just die, needlessly just because you are a have not.

This is not about Democrats or Republicans. This is not about Politics. This is about Human Beings. I am tired of suffering in physical and now emotional pain as an uninsured American Citizen. My hospital bills added up to over $30,000 for "SIX DAYS" That is $5,000.00 "PER DAY". I have absolutely no way of paying the doctors and hospital bills.

I cannot even afford to pay the follow-up medical care that I need before my medical condition deterioates and it will and that is a fact. I have Psoriatic Arthritis. I suffer all day and everyday with the psoriasis skin breakouts all over my body and the pain and swelling of my tendons and ligaments. I cannot even sleep soundly at night, due to the swelling and numbness of my tendons and ligaments. I have to force myself to stay up as long as I can, even though I just want to lay down and and just be able to sleep without the pain and discomfort.

So I live each day suffering in pain barely able to walk from my bedroom to the bathroom with the walker that the kind nurse allowed me to take with a promise to bring it back, when I get better and no longer needed it. I promised her I would do that, but I have not gotten better, and I will not get better without the proper Healthcare that I need.

I found a Psoriatic Reseach study while trying not to just give up, as I am trying so hard to fight and not give up, that is a struggle that I face every waking hour of the day. Unfortunately for me the, Psoriatic research study is 26 miles from where I live. I live in an apartment on the second floor, with steep concrete stairs. I can barely walk, the last time I left the apartment was in October 2009 when I went to a follow-up appointment at one of those pay as you go clinics, of which I was barely able to come up with the $85.00 cost. The clinic was one of those Urgent Care clinic that are everywhere now.

The entire time that I was at the Urgent Care Clinic, not one person came in the clinic, except for the mother of the receptionist who brought her daughter her dinner. I was there for atleast two hours. I was not impressed by the doctor. I just felt uneasy. I did not feel the caring and compassion. I would hope that their are some doctors who are still caring an compassionate, and that it is just not all about the money. I hope that their are doctors who are helping some of the uninsured people who cannot afford to pay.

This is "America" "The Greatest Country In The World" This is not the "Greatest Country In The World", America and it's people should be ashamed! This country is currently and had been for decades been denying The American citizens the basic right to have Healthcare Insurance if they cannot afford it!

Healthcare Reform must be passed Now! enough with the politics, human lives are at stake! Passing Healthcare Reform is the "Moral" and just thing to do. If their are any caring and compassionate people out there who would like to help me raise donations for my medical condition Psoriatic Arthritis donations can be made via Paypal @ moonstruck1724@aol.com I can supply verification of my medical condition and my medical bills.

This is my Life and this is my story.

MY HOSPITAL BILL IS $25,366.19

I RECEIVED MY HOSPITAL BILL TODAY AND IT WAS $25,366.19. I WAS ADMITTED IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 7 DAYS!!!! I ALSO RECEIVED A LETTER SAYING I WAS DENIED FOR THE CHARITY DISCOUNT REQUEST! I AM UNINSURED,UNEMPLOYED AND CAN BARELY WALK! I HAVE TO WALK WITH THE ASSISTANCE OF A WALKER AND EVEN WITH THE WALKER CURRENTLY I CAN ONLY GO BACK AND FORTH TO THE BATHROOM AND THAT IS A STRUGGLE AND THE BATHROOM IS DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM THE BEDROOM.

I AM STILL TRYING TO FIND AWAY TO PAY FOR MY URGENT NEED OF HEALTHCARE! I JUST WANT TO WALK AGAIN! I WANT MY LIFE BACK! I NEED HELP! PLEASE SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME! I AM BEGGING FOR HELP! SOMETHING I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD EVER HAVE TO DO! I FEEL LIKE I AM DROWNING OR STUCK IN QUICKSAND BEGGING FOR SOMEONE TO REACH OUT AND HELP A HUMAN BEING WHO IS SUFFERING AND IN NEED OF HELP!

PSORIASIS AND PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS IS UNDERFUNDED

FACT: THE GENERAL PUBLIC DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE SERIOUSNESS OF PSORIASIS AND PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS.

FACT: PSORIASIS AND PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS RESEARCH IS UNDERFUNDED.

I HAVE PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS

HELP I AM SICK AND I AM UNEMPLOYED. TWO WEEKS AGO I WAS TAKEN TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM BY AMBULANCE AND ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL. THE DOCTOR INITIALLY TOLD ME THAT I WAS VERY ANEMIC AND MY BLOOD COUNT WAS EXTREMELY LOW, SO LOW THAT I WAS IN NEED OF A BLOOD TRANSFUSION. WHICH WAS A VERY FRIGHTENING THOUGHT. THE DOCTOR SAID THAT I HAD TO BE ADMITTED. I WAS SO AFRAID WHEN THE NURSE CAME IN THE ROOM TO DRAW MY BLOOD, I COULD NOT EVEN LOOK. I WAS SO AFRAID OF WHAT THOSE TUBES OF MY BLOOD WOULD REVEAL. AS I WATCHED THE NURSE CARRY MY TUBES OF BLOOD OUT OF THE ROOM FOR TESTING, SOME HOW I JUST KNEW THAT MY LIFE WOULD BE CHANGED FOREVER.

THE THING IS I HAD NOT BEEN FEELING WELL FOR WEEKS. I WAS NOT ABLE TO EAT MUCH AT ALL, I WAS SLEEPING FOR HOURS AT A TIME. I WAS HAVING SOME TROUBLE WALKING, MY LEGS WERE STIFF AND AT TIMES I WAS UNSTEADY ON MY FEET. I ALSO HAD THIS RASH ON MY ARMS, FACE AND STOMACH. I HAD CONVINCED MYSELF THAT I WAS JUST SUFFERING FROM DRY SKIN, BECAUSE I MAINLY STAYED HOME WITH THE AIR CONDITIONING RUNNING ALL OF THE TIME. I WAS IN DENIAL AND I WAS SCARED.

I AM UNINSURED AND UNEMPLOYED. I WAS AFRAID TO GO TO THE ER BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID THAT AS SOON AS THEY FOUND OUT THAT I WAS UNINSURED THAT REGARDLESS OF MY CONDITION I WAS CONCERNED THAT I WOULD NOT GET THE PROPER CARE. I WAS ALSO CONCERNED THAT MY BILL WOULD BE OVER $10,000 AND I HAD NO WAY OF PAYING THE BILL AT ALL.

AFTER BEING ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS, AN INFLAMMATION OF JOINTS AND SURROUNDING LIGAMENTS AND TENDONS. PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS IS AN AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE, MEANING THE CELLS AND ANTIBODIES OF THE IMMUNE SYSTEM ARE MISDIRECTED AGAINST ONES OWN TISSUES. RARELY, A PERSON CAN HAVE PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS WITHOUT EVEN HAVING OBVIOUS PSORIASIS.

OFTEN THE MORE SEVERE THE SKIN SYMPTOMS ARE THE GREATER THE LIKELIHOOD A PERSON WILL HAVE PSORIATIC ARTHRITIS, A FORM OF INFLAMMATORY ARTHRITIS. I WILL HAVE THIS DISEASE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I AM A YOUNG 51 YEAR OLD WOMAN. I STAYED IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 7 DAYS. MY BLOOD COUNT WAS SO LOW THAT I HAD TO HAVE A BLOOD TRANSFUSION. I WAS GIVEN ONE UNIT OF BLOOD. BY MY LAST DAY IN THE HOSPITAL WHICH WAS SEPTEMBER 11, 2009, I FELT THAT THE ATTENDING DOCTOR WAS RUSHING ME OUT OF THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE I WAS UNINSURED. WHEN I MENTIONED MY CONCERN THAT THE HEMATOLOGIST WAS CONCERNED THAT I NEEDED ANOTHER UNIT OF BLOOD, THE ATTENDING DOCTOR TOLD ME THE HEMATOLOGIST WOULD HAVE TO TREAT ME AS AN OUTPATIENT.

THEN I HAD A VISIT BY THE ATTENDING RHEUMATOLOGIST WHO EXPLAINED TO ME THAT I NEED TO SEE A RHEUMATOLOGIST FOR FURTHER TREATMENT AND MEDICATION TO CONTROL MY DISEASE. HE THEN WENT ON TO SAY TO ME THAT HE WAS NOT GOING TO TREAT ME FOR FREE. (I NEVER ASKED HIM TO) AND I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY HE SAID THAT EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT HE KNEW THAT I WAS UNINSURED. I ASKED HIM WHAT HIS FEES WERE AND HE SAID THEY WERE BETWEEN $250.00-$450.00 PER OFFICE VISIT AND THAT DID NOT INCLUDE LABS. I JUST LAID THEIR HELPLESS AND IN SHOCK!

I ALSO NEED FOLLOW-UPS WITH THE DERMATOLOGIST FOR MY PSORIASIS WHICH HAD BROKEN OUT ON MY ARMS, FACE AND STOMACH. SOME OF IT IS CLEARING UP NOW DUE TO THE OINTMENT THAT THE DERMATOLOGIST PRESCRIBED. THE DERMATOLOGIST OFFICE VISITS COST $120.00 PER OFFICE VISIT. I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT ON OCTOBER 1, 2009. I AM PRAYING THAT I CAN RAISE ENOUGH MONEY TO SEE BOTH THE DERMATOLOGIST AND A RHEUMATOLOGIST ON THE SAME DAY, DUE TO THE FACT THAT THEY ARE BOTH LOCATED AT THE HOSPITAL CENTER.

MY HUSBAND WAS LAID-OFF AND IS STILL CURRENTLY UNEMPLOYED AND SEEKING EMPLOYMENT. BUT NOW THAT I CAN BARELY WALK OR DO FOR MYSELF , I CANNOT BE LEFT ALONE FOR VERY LONG. I CAN ONLY BARELY WALK WITH A WALKER. MY MOVEMENT IS VERY LIMITED DUE TO THE PAIN IN MY LEGS AND FEET. I CURRENTLY CANNOT COOK, WASH CLOTHES OR TAKE A SHOWER. I CANNOT TAKE A SHOWER. I HAVE NOT TAKEN A SHOWER SINCE BEFORE I WENT INTO THE HOSPITAL. I WASH UP TWICE A DAY, BUT IT IS JUST NOT THE SAME. I BREAK OUT IN TEARS BECAUSE I AM SO SCARED AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. AT NIGHT MY LEGS AND FEET GET NUMB EVEN WHEN I ELEVATE THEM. MOST NIGHTS I CAN HARDLY SLEEP.

I HAVE BEEN PRESCRIBED 7 DIFFERENT MEDICATIONS. I AM PLANNING ON APPLYING FOR SSI AND MEDICAID BUT I MUST FIRST SEE A DOCTOR TO EVEN GET THE PROCESS STARTED, AND EVEN THEN THE PROCESS WILL TAKE MONTHS.

IF ANYONE WAS FINANCIALLY BLESSED AND CAN AFFORD TO DONATE MONEY TO HELP ME GET THE HEALTHCARE THAT I NEED. I WOULD DEARLY APPRECIATE IT! I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FIND MYSELF IN THIS POSITION. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO SUFFER OR DIE IN THIS COUNTRY BECAUSE THEY CANNOT AFFORD TO GET PROPER HEALTHCARE.